Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Comments & Mushy Stuff

It's been over a week since I last posted, and that's pretty much my fault. Sometimes it gets really hard for me to even convince myself to get up and do stuff anymore. But enough about my wangst.

My last post got a bunch of comments, and some of them were making suggestions and saying other fun and exciting things. I didn't want to make a huge comment in response (Don't comments have character limits? Oh, who cares?), so I figured I'd dedicate some of this post to going down the list.

Zeke Strahm said...
I'd recommend some music for you, but I never really broke out of that So-Cal punk faze...I still stand by what I always told Lizzie, that that was the only music category that still put out some halfway decent music.

Nightmares...just another thing you live with in this line of existance. Bad part about it is, you get used to them. Good part is they eventually get less painful over time because of it.

I've never really been into the So-Cal stuff, myself. But the nightmares are more troubling. I'm already used to normal ones, but it's the fact that this feeling keeps cropping up randomly, in places it shouldn't be.
Anonymous said...

I've been reading your blog for a while now and I have a few theories.

Granted my experience is with a different paranormal stalker I tend to call "Big Bad" but I think it works the same as SM.

The only resource you have to your disposal is the notebook. I would suggest starting there. It could hold invaluable information and clues.

A good protection spell I've learned to fight BB is to visualize yourself in a bubble. It sounds dumb but it's kept BB just out of reaching me more times than not.

Another way is to find a silver trinket, something that calls to you. Soak it in salt water, during a full moon would be best. Though you might have access to real holy water and that would work better than the salt water. Keep it on your person and it will protect you.

The key is that you need to believe for this to work to it's fullest.

Protect yourself and read the notebook.

Anon 1, you bring up some interesting ideas. I'm sorry to hear about your "Big Bad" (Way to be a dedicated troper, by the way. High five.); it looks like I'm finding more and more people in the same boat as I am, and I don't know about you, but it makes me feel a little warm-fuzzier to know that Vi and I aren't alone.

I know that the notebook is important somehow. I can feel it. But you guys have to understand...every time I even get close to that thing, every alarm in my head starts blaring. I feel that wrong feeling again, and I think about Logan Renault and what could happen if I saw the evidence of my best friend slowly losing a battle with our friend the Operator. Maybe I am supposed to look in it -- but I can't. Not yet, anyway. You guys have been so amazing...I just need you to be patient with this one.

I won't lie to you, Anon 1 -- Allie and I had a good giggle over your Bubble Method, and if Vi had been speaking to me at the time, I'm sure she would have as well. Be that as it may, it does sound promising. I'll share it with Vi and make sure she applies it as well as her Constant (yes, despite some evidence against it she's still carrying around that pen. She's made it into a necklace, actually).

I don't know about silver, but the rosary that Father Kelly gave me certainly calls to me at this point. Ever since I decided that it would be my Constant in the event that I suddenly find my world even more Slender than it is now, I've been keeping it on me, and I've gotten into the habit of sometimes playing with it when I'm bored or alone. As for soaking it in anything, I don't know about that, since it would probably weaken the string holding the beads together. Besides, it's a fucking rosary -- a saint medal and a crucifix and prayer beads. I don't think it's gonna get much holier, bro.

UlrycZ said...

I offer not words of comfort, as I have none that I can offer at the moment. However, I do offer a.. a shoulder to cry on, I suppose. An ear to listen to you talk... That sort of thing.

Also, I agree with the person who does not reveal his identity. There might be something important in that notebook, though it might be wise to settle down some, as you well know that things have been stressful.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry for what you have to go through. None of us can know what you are going through. I won't lie and say I know how you feel. But I can say that I'm here. I know I'm just a random stranger on the internet, but you can always unload on us.


Averyel said...

I'm here for you. I haven't lost anyone yet, and I might be soon losing myself, but I'd like to help as best I can.

I think of it as having cancer- you'd didn't ask for it, it's incredibly difficult to get rid of, and it's usually terminal.

Just keep fighting.

Anonymous said...

I can’t begin to imagine how it feels to loose someone to an evil entity, I know your mind is probably not in its healthiest state right now, but please try not to become swallowed in misery.

If I could be any help to you at all don’t hesitate to ask, I am always here for you to confide in.

Thank you, thank you, thank you, a million times each and a million times over. I'll be the first to admit that this week was hard -- harder than it has been yet. Every day, especially on those days when I felt like I couldn't bear it one second longer, I'd read the comments on the previous post, and I'd feel monumentally better. It's one thing for Father Kelly or Detective Goldman to give me comfort or support -- it's kind of their job, and it's not like they can get away from me (that sounds bad, but you know what I mean. They're kind of obligated). But you guys don't have to be here. This is the internet. You don't have to listen to me bitch and whine. But you do, and then you tell me you're still here for me. That is amazing. That is simply fucking astounding to me. You guys are my angels. Don't ever doubt you are.

And if any of you need support from me, I'm happy to give whatever I can. I'm not sure whether my email is anywhere around here -- it's celeste.mclachlan at gmail. Thanks, guys.

Kite said...

Have you tried listening to Vampire Weekend? I'm personally a fan, and their energetic music keeps spirits up.Or maybe you'd like some anarcho Folk Punk. Johnny Hobo and the Freight Trains, and Wingnut Dishwasher's union are good bands too.

I haven't heard of any of those, but I'll give them a try. The name Vampire Weekend doesn't bring up the idea of fun, energetic music, but at this point, there are more important things not making sense. Thanks for the suggestions.
It's December 8th. Are you still there, Celie? Are you still with us?


  1. As ridiculous as the method sounds I've had it work many times. It gave me a giggle the first time it was described to me too.

    You're right I wouldn't suggest soaking the rosary. I've had one fall apart that way.

    Those warning bells in your mind when you get near the note book, I know that feeling well. It's a natural reaction to the paranormal. Something written in the book has some sort of power whether Rose realized it or not.

    If SM is affected by thought, why not take the book to a place where people actively regard as Holy before opening it? Take it to the church. It is a sanctuary of positive thoughts and empowered objects.

    I'll admit I was beginning to worry that something had happened when you hadn't posted in a while.

    Call me Baibre. I am here for you and will answer anything to the best of my ability.

  2. I'm so glad to hear that you're alright and you've found a way to keep going. It's uplifting, in a way. I'll be praying for your safety, Celeste. :)

  3. It's rather uplifting to see you posting, Celie, honestly.

  4. And here I was worried that she had been gotten. Silly me. Hmhm.. Good to see you still here, Celeste.

  5. Whew. Good to see you're up and about.

    Good for her making that joke. Times like these, jokes are among the best of remedies.

  6. Good for you guys to be able to keep trying to lighten the mood and try to move on from past mistakes. I hope you post more every now and then, everyone will begin to worry if you only post every week or two.

  7. It's good to hear that you pastched it up with Violet, you need all the friends you can get right now.

    And no problem, love. What you're going through right now is something that no one should. Least we can do is give a little support.


  8. Yeah, their band name isn't the greatest, but they're really upbeat sounding, and the meanings are so far buried, you'd never find them.

  9. Try to get some blessed salt, they use that in exorcisms sometimes, enough of it to at least have a container full or make a circle around you. Or you could put the rosary into the salt. It shouldn't ruin the rosary like the water would.